15. September 2008 by ftayong.

 Bisexuality is being sexually attracted to both males and females.

Some people believe we are all potentially bisexual and that each person simply tilts more one way or another. For others, bisexuality is a very specific way of being that’s quite distinct from homo- or heterosexuality. Still others feel bisexuals are gay people who have trouble accepting themselves. In the same way that ideas differ about what exactly bisexuality is, people who have mixed sexual preferences have different ways of defining themselves. Some people are comfortable with labels like “bisexual,” “bi-curious” or “questioning.” Some call themselves “gay” or “straight” instead. Others choose not to name their orientation at all. One way of seeing bisexuality is as part of a “continuum“–with gay and straight extremes at either end and an endless variety of sexual preferences in between. The continuum makes sense especially to people whose sexuality changes over time.
 
Bisexuals often feel pressure to choose between gay and straight. “Coming out” as bisexual can be especially hard for this reason. Some people miss the more clearly defined, socially supported position at one end of the continuum or the other.
 
When a friend comes out to you as bisexual, it can be confusing and may raise questions about your own attitude towards bisexuality. You may be upset if your friend is hurt by other people’s reactions and might feel uncomfortable if you think your friend is sexually interested in you. Even if it’s difficult, being supportive will probably make a huge difference to her or him.

Bisexual Relationships

For some, bisexual relationships can be more complicated than straight, gay or lesbian relationships. However, regardless of your sexuality, it is important to be open and honest with your partner/s, about feelings of attraction to other people. Like everyone else, bisexual people fall in love and form committed relationships. These may be with a man, a woman, a transgendered person, or with more than one person. There are no rules that bisexual people follow in relationships- everyone is free to make them up for themselves.

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15. September 2008 by ftayong.

This is what i would like to share to all who encounter the same manner as i am right now. I know many of us who experienced the same identity still are doubt and and why i am like this.

~Hugz~

Are you ready to be criticized?

This was the biggest part im having a problem with. Deep inside me i would love to express the way i am, but i am afraid to be criticized to those malicious minded that sorrounds. This is the hardest time that i’ve been dealing with, where it came to the point that i almost give up and end up everything. But i just realize that it is not only me who experienced the same identity crisis, 80% of male population does, and i am one of them.

Day by day as i seek the truth, face the consequences, conquer the burden that i am suffering right now and is not an easy thing to do. I’ve been a lot of criticism when i was in High, i tend to live to be looner as i am ashame of myself and afraid to be teased by everyone. I felt i was tamed not to mingle with colleagues, depressed and demoralized. Outcast and doubt feeling it was, but i was still hoping everything has an end.

I enter new dimension in life when i came in tertiary, the environment was a bit open, i never had hard times discovering new faces around me. I gain a little bit confidence to myself and slowly covered up my identity and seeking to understand the crucial stage am i into. Accross the road, meeting various types of identity and sum up and observed how they carry themselves with confidentiality. I met persons who had the same feelings, emotions, mutual identity as me. I carefully entwined and conived the experiences that we had with in some various cases. In such a way i slowly became a person and know my identity and beginning to understand the beauty of life and the acceptance of being BISEXUAL.

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10. July 2008 by Leo bong juntilla.

Heres to the world
thats passing by

behind us
as we get away

together we could make it
together..thats where my faith is

i don’t care about our pasts.
i don’t care about the future

i would love it
if you were in mine

and if i was in yours.

but all thats on my mind
is you and me
and tonight

so kiss me like it’s the last time
hold me like I’ll fade away
tell me you love me like I’m leaving forever
even though I’m NEVER going anywhere

on this quiet little street
hold on to my hand tightly and run with me
thats all i need
you to be the only thing that can make all
the bad disappear

and every time i hear your voice play in my head
telling me to breathe
i think “what would i do with out you”

i would give anything
to hold on to this feeling forever

i know we’re never gonna part
because when two fly away with each other

they never separate from their hearts.

and this feeling.
baby let’s hold it in the palm of our hand
because we both know

its never going to end

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3. February 2008 by ftayong.

As we all know that being in a identity crisis is not that simple as we thought it is. There comes a time that we need to find out and figure out ourselves of what we really wanted and liked. In my situation, i met a person who is so sweet caring and everything. He was the right person for and my all. We lasted our relationship for almost four months this year but unfortunately, once day he confessed that he is “Out of Love” for me. That was the painful words that comes out from his mouth that stubbed deeply into my heart and ruined my mind out of nothing i can do about. I ask him why have he come up with such unpleasant word? he replied, “it just come to a point that he felt no more value in our relationship”. I just can’t imagine myself of being told such line that really affects on me emotionally. I called him and was crying out as he spoke those words and ask him, “what have i done worng that made you don’t like about me? is there somebody else?”, he just told me “there is no third party, its just that our relation means nothing to me anymore, it like nothing no spark at all”I really don’t know what to do then after i’ve heard it. I am still currently in the middle of depression and emotionally sick about what happened. It’s really hard to forget someone whom you really loved the most and put all your trust on him. And its really painful as of the moment as it keeps on reminds me of him as he go along away from me.

Now, am totally alone and no directions, don’t know what to do. How i wish i’d rather die, than to live in this misserable life, that has nothing to do but bitterness and emptiness of my heart.

Lessons: Better to be single than to be committed.

*-=Hugz=-* 

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3. February 2008 by admin.

First Love?          

Who will ever forget their first kiss, first holding hands, first movie, first endearment, first hug, first lips to lips in other words “First Love”.

My first love is a long story and that is why I will never ever forget it. Everytime I reminice the times when we’re together I can still feel the butterly in my stomach and those mouses that always running on my chest. Huuuhh! My heart beats fast everytime I see him and when his near I think I’m gonna blush. It comes to the point that I wrote a poem just to express my feelings towards him. If only a girl can express her feelings to a guy I would certainly do the first move but I am afraid. I’m frightened by the things other people would say.” Ka igat aning bataa oi bata pa gni mag-una2x na sa laki” that would be the spyciest words I don’t want to hear. So sadly, I just kept the love I have for this guy not knowing he felt the same way towards me. Being a 4 months older than him, I felt a bit odd imagining how would the relationship goes if we are going to be boyfriend and girlfriend. I feel like I’m his “ate” or “sister”. Since elementary grades, we already shown affection to each other. Teasing, loving2x, caring and eating starapple under the tree. Heheehe..he is so cute, charming, macho and I cannot forget the scent of his perfume (iyang perfume mao sad ako gamit karon..hehehhee) We entered high school and a lot of changes have been taken place. One of our neighbor was secretly inlove with him too. Shocks! (competentia). That girl is my classmate. I was very shocked when my friend ask me if I know this guy and I joyously say Yes! He is my childhood friend. According to her, that girl is claiming that they are in a relationship. Whattt??? I felt like a bell rang into my ears and my eardrums were broken. How could that be, I never notice anything special on the both of them. So, I spy on them and they are caught in the act. They seems so happy, sweet…darn it! how could he break my heart. One day we talk about our lives. I asked him straightforward if they have a relationship and he Denied it. For 4 years in High School we are secretly in love(MU. I strived hard to win a medal so that my dad will not suspect that I was inlove. So at last, we graduated. May 20, 2002 I still can recall..In the cold wind on the seashore he ask me to be his girlfriend. Being in love with him for so many years ofcourse without having a second thought “I nodded..” I do loved him. For 7 1/2 months, we shared so many things…My parents knew our relationship and my dad has been so strict on me since then. I am the only girl among the siblings and he is very protective towards me. We seldomly see each other and I am very busy in College. You know college is very hard especially with my IT course. When 8 months comes a sudden strucks my life. There you go, that GIRL is stealing my boyfriend??What the Heek? Everyday of my life, I saw them strolling together, laughing…(tuyuon jud bah adto agi sa amua)..so I give up.

I was so hurt and I lose the willingness to study..but i never let my feelings overflow and control me. There was a time that I cried and cried on the CR. I throw the POOH stuff toy that he gave me as if it is him.I spunk it and talk to it..always asking why he did that to me? Shocks..drama ayo ko ato as in..

We never had a formal break up…We just talk with regards to the relationship few months after they break up as well. They never last as well..

He said he still love me, and wanted to make up but I did not allow myself to be fooled again though i love him but i kill my feelings for him. I cannot afford to lose my dignity and pride..So as my first love ends..

Hmmm…do u want to know about our first kiss and hugs? Haahahha…..I have my new bf na so ok na ako.

I’ll just tell you if you would post your love story on your First love…Post your comments please…

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